So whether you admit it or not , Our lives changed .

WILL IT EVER BE THE SAME THOUGH?

I wrote this post because it was always a diary to me ,where I can write sh*T that I can’t let out and to prove that you are not ALONE in this and you are NOT the only one feeling what you are feeling right now.

I feel like friends and families should have stuck by each other at a time like this ( SADLY NOT ALL DID ) Businesses support should not be for Money and the world should be F’ing living as one, from the legend JOHN LENON WORDS . instead everyone is arguing , fighting , marathoning to coops (when they know there is a high chance of catching it over there, getting so much bread forgetting that they will eventually expire, lets not mention toilet paper ) ATTACKING gas stations ( Even though you are not going anywhere anytime soon ) They are acting like we are going to WAR and everyone is going to DIE SOON AND NOT EDUCATING them selves of how we need to remain CALM in this together.

ONE WORD , no 2 words ” FEAR ” “CHAOS”

Everyones scared and most of them are careless anyways, THE CONTRADICTION IS REAL , Normal feeling at an extent at a certain period of time , its the right thing to do is be CAUTIOUS but when everyone fights with one other because they are bored of looking at each others faces in the household , fighting with friends on the phone over stupid stuff , leaving close ones and holding grudges can create even more problems at a hard time like this, and thats what people is so distracted to GET. THEY LOST THEMSELVES.

Now that I’m full Kuwaiti and the full LOCKDOWN will start tomorrow ,

I feel like these 20 days all I will do is dwell and help f me finding my own self . Focus on how can I revive all the loses i got from my own businesses , PLAN ,Reading more even thou I hate reading , BAKE , walk like a crazy person in the house to complete my 10,000 steps , Take care of my skin and hair that I damaged all those years of every days makeup and blow drys hehe. Instead of complaining , waste your time guys until things actually get better , its just not in your hands anymore so set your mind FREE from it.

I know you pretty bored because this post has no pictures and straight to the points but read on , maybe this can open your eyes a bit.

DID THE PEOPLE IN YOUR LIFE GET EXPOSED YET?

I am pretty sure you guys are shocked from so many people in you lives during the lockdown and quarantine. I AM , I swear you are not alone , DO NOT GET UPSET ABOUT IT, I realised and you should too, that “GOD IS SHOWING ME who I should keep in my life and people who just doesn’t have a place anymore . You will change , you will not have the same energy for people who never deserved your energy , you will fight with your friends, loved ones and even family, but suddenly you will get the immune that you will just not get as hurt by it anymore , this is exactly what’s happening with me , I used to care about friends more than family but now I got this 0 cares adrenaline feeling in my body system , That whoever wants to stay ,will stay and whoever wants to leave , I will open the door myself.

The whole point of this post is DO NOT LET Anyone tell you what to do at a time like this you have the brain cells to know what’s right from wrong. FOCUS ON YOURSELF ONLY !

STOP DEPENDING ON PEOPLE TO MAKE YOU HAPPY AND BE THERE FOR YOU ALL YOUR LIFE,

STOP BEGGING FOR PEOPLE TO COME BACK TO YOUR LIFE , IF THEY LEFT THEY LEAVE AND LEAVE IT TO THAT , IF THEY CARE THEY WILL BE BACK EITHER WAYS , IF THEY DON’T THEN THEY NEVER CARED.

TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR OWN PROBLEMS , STOP BLAMING OTHER AND JUST DEAL WITH IT.

STOP GIVING A DAMN. ( SOME PEOPLE JUST THINK OF THEMSELVES AND DOESNT DESERVE YOUR FULL CARE)

BE THERE FOR THE PEOPLE WHO WERE ALWAYS THERE . ( I MEAN ALWAYS THERE NOT WHEN THEY WANT YOU TO BE )

IF FRIENDS LEFT YOU AT YOUR WORST , I Repeated this 100000 times they only wanted you there for their FUN TIMES AND THATS ALL.

TAKE RESPONSIBILITY FOR YOUR OWN ACTIONS , AND STOP TELLING PEOPLE WHAT YOUR ARE GOING THROUGH SOME ARE HAPPY TO HEAR THEM IF THEY ARE BAD TRUST ME ( except the ones that are always there for you)

DO NOT LET HATE BOTHER YOUR , BECAUSE IT CAME FROM SOMEONE THAT ACTUALLY HATES HIM OR HERSELF ( Thick skin people , you LIVE in a social media world) if they don’t talk you are not important ( THEY WILL EAT YOU ALIVE ) *FACTS , accept it.

I want you guys to stop what you are doing , isolate yourself for a bit just to think of what you will change after this , write down a calendar , plan every day right , think about how you want to get out of this mess a changed person that focused on whats bothering them and actually worked on it , (FIX IT) don’t delay it till tomorrow and the day after and the YEAR after,whether in your image ( I REFUSE TO GET OUT OF THIS LOCKDOWN LOOKING FAT ” people will see you anyways , don’t spend it on NETFLIX AND BENJ EATING” , career ( I LOST NOW BUT I WILL GAIN IT DOUBLE WHEN EVERYTHING WILL BE BETTER ) , DO NOT GIVE UP IN ANY BAD SITUATIONS IN YOUR LIFE EVEN THOUGH IT’S a WORLD PANDEMIC and this too shall PASS .

OUT OF MY SYSTEM . MUCH LOVE , STOP BEING SELFISH , STAY HOME STAY STAFE xx